Saturday, November 3, 2007

The Sound Of Bitterness


Assalam Alikom..

I may sound a bit harsh and rude.. Hope u’ll indulge wut I have to say…

I’m Feeling numb and neglected.. Maybe a bit depressed, but that’s how i feel right now.. I’m not trying to fake it either..
I have a strange feeling of letting go of everything … Setting things to the wildness of life I guess…
I dun feel like loving nor caring about anyone anymore.. I just feel I’m not capable of loving either..
My sensitivity holds me within its claws and lets me fade away bit by bit..
Sometimes I manage to pretend and tell everyone I’m alright, but most of the time i can't fake it.. It's just too much to handle.. Everyday goes by I score a big fat zero…
Feeling trapped and prisoned forever.. I’m so damn afraid of everything…
Wanna scream out loud and sleep forever…
My loneliness kills me and I keep begging for ppl to hang out with me like a desperate helpless creature…

No one will ever understand how I live nor with whom....
No one will ever be able to understand how I feel cuz simply they’re never where I stand..
How I hate it when someone start lecturing me about how to live my life and do this and do that!! .. “HELLO!! UR NOT MEEEE!!”
I have so much anger and bitterness inside me although I keep working on purifying my heart, but I can’t help it.. Sorry if I’m not good enough.. Sorry if I’m not doing things ur way.. Sorry but I just wanna end all this…
Why can’t they just figure it out???!! I only need their support and encouragement.. I need real friendship.. I dun need interfering …. I need love ppl ... LOVE !!


.. N.O.H.A ..