Thursday, October 16, 2008

Despite the Darkness, I still can See!

Things can turn out to be easy after all .. Yeah, that's me who's talking :):) .. I know i tend to be gloomy and pessimistic most of the time, but there are times when i laugh my heart out .. Yes, i really do :):) .. Maybe that's why i don't do a lot around here .. I'm not used to being happy lolz .. Let me tell you something .. maybe my writings are not that "HOORAY" and maybe i didn't try to mention any comic situations that happen to me before .. maybe because i don't use this blog more often .. maybe if i started to take it seriously and use it as a real diary, I'll be able to mention couple of issues that come up to my mind other than the usual sadness I've been driving myself into .. However, that doesn't mean that I'll stop stating my true feelings whether they are cheering or not ..

What i'm really trying to say is that i'm the kind of girl who tends to take things seriously more than her surroundings.. That's the atmosphere i live in everyday.. Critical and frustrating, but yet warm at a lot of times .. Unfortunately, it's a bit hard for me to state the things that comes ahead of me everyday, but i do try to be clear as much as i can ..

The thing that i long for the most is having a career .. If not, than it can be a real thing that i can do and love at the same time .. I despise routine and crave for excitement .. Maybe that's why it's my ultimate fear to end up boring and meaningless .. New experiences make me chill and become alive .. New ppl, new stuff, new surroundings ... etc. ..

Despite the darkness, i'll still be seeing the light .. Things won't stay the same that's a constant rule .. Things will become harder for sure, but also they will change ..

Seems that, finally, I'll be experiencing the so called "Hope" :)

.. N.O.H.A ..