Monday, April 6, 2009

".. I .."


I can't seem to focus. I can't seem to get a reasonable sleep. I can't seem to have a stable relationship… and the list goes on. I don't know why I love writing when I have this mood. I don't know why I have so many dark ideas lately. I don't know why I'm still hanging on things that aren't right for me.

I don't know where I'm headed. I don't know if it will ever change. I don't know the time when I will ever have a normal life like everyone else. But, I know this;

I know I'm fun to be with. I know I'm kind and caring. I know I deserve to be treated like a proper lady. I know I love laughter. I know I love being loved. I know I love to give. I know I'm trustworthy. I know that I can turn your world upside down. I know I'm effective. I know I'm crazy and spontaneous. I know I'm moody and righteous. I know I love stories. I know I'm wise and helpful. I know I love Allah (swt). I know I don't trust someone that often. I know I'm handy. I know I adore honesty. I know I love music. I know I hate frustrations. I know I hate double-faced people. I know I love luxury. I know I can't live without harmony. I know I'm not that good-looking. I know I like being alone sometimes. I know I love having friends. I know I'm so much into sharing. I know I wanna be something or someone that/who matters. I know I can make someone happy. I know I'm not easily understood. I know I'm weird. I know I'm hard to deal with sometimes. I know I'm a good listener. I know I'm passionate. I know I'm tender. I know I'm full of sins. I know I get outrageous. I know I sound offensive. I know I wanna live on my own. I know I'm angry. I know I'm a Leo and proud. :)

And, I wish for the best. I pray for people to get better. I'm simple. I need to be heard. I need to be appreciated. I want to be safe. I wish to be passionately hugged. I simply need love. I simply need a life to live… to breathe…

.. N.O.H.A ..