Friday, December 23, 2011

You've Got the Love!


You've Got The Love!

It's never too late to start living. It's never too late to be recognizable, to feel alive, or to embrace life. You deserve to be treated with respect, for you have rights for a better future. Believe that you can achieve beyond your imagination. Never belittle yourself. Never think you're less than anyone else. Never underestimate your intuition. Become your own best friend to have the will of overcoming, conquering, and defeating your own demons. 

According to Psychologists, "Personality" is defined as a combination of emotional, attitudinal, and behavioral response patterns of an individual. Consequently, these patterns develop your character, as they shape your lifecycle. Govern them, you'll blossom; abuse them, you'll breathe heavily. Everyone of us has his/her mechanism, which is regularly affected by various inputs, and this is how we're evolved into the people we are today. To be able to peacefully get along with yourself, reflect this quote upon you; "No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We, ourselves, must walk the path," (Buddha). Bring a piece of paper and hang it where you can see it every day. Highlight these words, "No one" and "Ourselves" to recognize the power of your own self-confidence. Waiting to be loved is not your only way to salvation. Loving yourself is your highest priority. Explore your missing pieces and fit them all back together in harmony, applying the help of these following main points, because no one will do it for you. Only then, your soul will be revived.


Be Good .. Be Kind .. Be Truthful .. Be Sensible .. Be Joyful .. Be Considerate .. Be Giving .. Be Passionate .. Be Glamorous .. Be Confident .. Be Strong .. Be Beautiful .. Be Grateful .. Be Helpful .. Be Patient .. 


Interview Yourself
Have a one-on-one interview with yourself. Write down a list of your strengths and weaknesses in one piece of paper; putting each in a separate column. At the end, your good qualities will lift up your mood. See?! You're not too bad after all.

"Getting in touch with your true self must be your first priority." ~ Tom Hopkins 

You're not Alone
The first thing you have to realize is that you're not alone in this world. Believe it or not, someone, somewhere is living- if not-a similar situation, then a worse life than what you're living at the moment. Be patient; you never know what the future holds for you. Accept your fate and it will turn out for the best on its own.

"All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson 


Let Go of your Anger
Forgive the ones who hurt you, and forget the incidents that came along with it. If someone is sorry, give them a chance to redeem themselves to you. You never know what they had in mind. If it's still too hard for you, then make use of it in any positive way; work out, write, read… etc. Just make sure you keep your mind off of thinking.

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned." ~ Buddha 


Be Kind
Listen more than you talk. Give away some charity money. Be giving, and try not to say no if someone is calling for your help. Put yourself in people's shoes to experience what they feel. By then, you'll be amazed by the amount of support you'll have later.

"Begin to be now what you will be hereafter." ~ William James 


Become Closer to God
Maintain your daily rituals. Recite more prayers from your heart. Believe it or not, this specific element is the only common factor to all good things. Stop being so stubborn and face it; you'll realize how much it makes you feel better!

"What is Faith? When your good deed pleases you and your evil deed grieves you, you are a believer. What is Sin? When a thing disturbs (the peace of) your heart, give it up." ~ Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) 


Develop Yourself
Read more self-development books to motivate you. Find inspiration by reading true stories. Try to limit your materialistic urges and replace them with more knowledge. Be curious and thoughtful about our daily news. Novels can encourage you to be analytical and understand more people as well.

"He who is not courageous enough to take risks will accomplish nothing in life." ~ Muhammad Ali 


Let Go of Negativity
Think happy thoughts. Fight the dark waves that invade your mind. Break away from sadness, either by having a 30 minutes wake or going on a vacation every now and then. Changing your daily routine will help you greatly. If someone invites you for a community activity, go ahead and try it; you may love it. Daily routine is a killer!

"A people free to choose will always choose peace." ~ Ronald Reagan 


Limit Your Access to Technology
Too many machinery and too many wires are more than our bodies can endure! Make sure you "Disconnect to Connect." Go out and socialize. Call your old friends and get together somewhere. Open your eyes to your surroundings. Add a little glimpse of nature to your day; "Green" is good for your system. It certainly cools you off and clears your mind.

"Forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair." ~ Khalil Gibran 


Create Your Own Masterpiece
Whether you write, cook, design… etc., unleash your talents within your friends and family, and ask them for support. Let your voice be heard and share your creations for the world to explore. Be effective and never live only for yourself; your existence will be worth-living.

"Be a yardstick of quality. Some people aren't used to an environment where excellence is expected." ~ Steve Jobs

.. N.O.H.A ..

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April/May 2012

Monday, December 19, 2011

دماغي كده!



بالله عليكم .. قبل ماتيجوا تتناقشوا معايا وتعلقوا على أي حاجة بحطها عندي .. ماحدش يفتكر إني بدافع عن اللي بيحرقوا ويبوظوا الممتلكات .. أنا بدافع عن اللي بيتظاهروا وبيعتصموا .. عندي قناعة إن المجلس الحقير ده هو السبب في كل اللي بيحصل وهو اللي ساب البلطجية وهو اللي عمل الخطة دي كلها من أولها لأخرها عشان تيجوا أنتم تخافوا وتقولوا هنعمل إيه من غيره؟؟! .. هو اللي مأكلنا هو! هو اللي شيلنا هو! .. هو اللي حامينا هو!!! وهو لا حاميكم ولا شاريكم ولا بيفكر فيكم أصلا .. وعامل عليكم تمثيلية كبير قوي وأخدتوا الطعم صح قوي!! تمام زي ما كان مبارك منايّمكم .. وأنا بقى لا طاهرة ولا شريفة ولا فوق البشر عشان فاهمة قذرته .. أنا واحدة عادية جدا ومش بأتعالى على حد! بس ماحلتيش غير دماغي اللي بفكر بيها وبرفض أي حد يستعماني ويستغفلني لأني مش ساذجة الحمدلله !!! فـبالله عليكم سيبوني في حالي لو مش مقتنعين باللي بقوله .. ودمتم!


.. N.O.H.A ..


Monday, December 12, 2011

A Sealed Promise


A promise has been made .. A fate has been written ..
A precious seal has found its way to my heart ..

He has succeeded .. Yes, he did ..
He has managed to revive my soul ..
He knew how to bring me back to life ..
And that's what he does best ..

People keep wondering why ..
They wish they had the chills he gives me ..
I'm not sad, though ..
For who has tasted eternal love, wishes the same for all ..

Mark this day forever .. It's written in our history ..
It's the day we signed our own manifesto ..
There's no turning back .. No, now is the time of the brave ..
You dream, you'll conquer .. You let in fear, you'll fail ..

My love, read these words and  repose ..
Save yourself for the one who cherishes you the most ..
Remember, don't ever forget ..
Your heart is safe here with me ..
The letters of your name are carved on mine ..
Your soul will never be alone even if I'm not around ..

.. N.O.H.A ..

*Inspired by Christina Perri - A Thousand Years


Saturday, November 26, 2011

بالنسبة للناس اللي في التحرير

للعلم .. مش كل اللي في التحرير عايزين البرادعي ولا عايزين يحرقوا أقسام ومنهم شباب الإخوان والسلفيين وشباب من ائتلاف شباب الثورة ومنهم ناس كتير قوي من الشعب .. طلعان عينهم وشايفين كرامتهم فوق كل شيء


اعرف الناس بجد نازلة عشان إيه وبلاش تجمع ... حاول تبقى عادل وحيادي وعقلاني ..
على فكرة أنا ضد المجلس وضد الباردعي .. أنا مع الإنتخابات وحكومة إنقاذ وطني !

حكومة إنقاذ وطني حاجة ومجلس رئاسي مدني حاجة تانية خالص خلوا بالكم!

الإنتخابات هي الحل دلوقتي .. ماتخلوش اللي بيحصل في التحرير والعباسية يغمي عنيكم على أهم حدث عدّى علينا من ساعة الثورة .


استعلم عن لجنتك الانتخابية و المرشحين
http://www.elections2011.eg/


حملة التوعية بالإنتخابات


.. N.O.H.A ..


Friday, November 18, 2011

أنا قلت نعم!

تصوير عمر كمال

أقر أنا المواطنة المصرية نهى عبد التواب إني واحدة من اللي قالت نعم ..

أنا قلت نعم للثورة مش لبقاء العسكر ..
أنا قلت نعم لتعديل 6 أو 7 بنود مش لإعلان دستوري ..
أنا قلت نعم لاستقرار مش دوّامة لمدة سنتين ..
أنا قلت نعم لتسليم السلطة لرئيس جمهورية مش لعسكري ببدلة مدني ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان صفوت الشريف يتحاكم مش عشان يتسكت عليه وميطلعش عليه خبر واحد هو وأمثاله ..
أنا قلت نعم للمادة التانية من الدستور مش لمجلس من غير إستفتاء شعبي ..
أنا قلت نعم لإنتخابات مجلس شعب في سبتمبر 2011 وإنتخابات رئاسية في 2012 مش لشلل ربعي لحد نص 2013 ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان الأمن يرجع مش عشان قانون الطوارئ يمتد ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان صوتي يطلع للناس مش عشان يتقال عليه تطاول وعدم إحترام .. لأ وكمان إنى بلطجية ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان الشرطة تحترمنا مش عشان يربّونا على ثورتنا ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان أخد حقي مش عشان يتقاللي كفاية إعتصامات ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان ألاقي تأمين صحي وأمان مش سرقة في كل حتة وتكاسل ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان الفقراء والعشوائيات والفساد مش عشان رجوع  فلول حزب وطني وقصور التجمّع الخامس ورشاوي هنا وهناك ..

أنا قلت نعم عشان الناس تتكاتف مع بعض وتبطّل أنانية مش عشان كل واحد يفرش فرشته في أي ميدان ويرمي زبالة في كل حتة ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان الطفل يتعلم كويس مش عشان يتقال له في كتاب إن حسني مبارك لسه بيحكمنا ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان الشباب يصنع قرارات مش عشان يتسجن بمحاكم عسكرية ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان المجلس قال إن جاتله أوامر بالضرب ورفض مش عشان يقولوا إحنا  بتوع إشاعات ..

أنا قلت نعم عشان اطلب طلب ويترد عليَّ مش عشان اتساب بالأسابيع والشهور لحد ما أزهق ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان أنا واحدة من الشعب وصوتي يفرق مش عشان يتقال إني من حزب الكنبة ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان كنت واثقة في المجلس العسكري مش عشان يأخد الثقة دي وشويه بشويه ينسب الثورة لنفسه ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان الجيش يرجع لثكناته مش عشان يحكمنا رئيس عسكري من تاني ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان اللي سرق يأخد جزاؤه مش عشان يتفقوا معاه يسلم ويستلم ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان قانون العقوبات يتفعّل بجد مش عشان قانون الطوارئ يفضل يحكمنا ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان الوزارء يورونا وشهم مش عشان يقعدوا على مكاتب ومانفتكرش حتى أساميهم ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان ينتهي عصر الورق والتصاريح مش عشان أغرق في روتين ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان ماحدش يشتمني لما أنزل مش عشان حد يضربني في الشارع ويجري ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان أتظاهر بإسلوب متحضر مش عشان أمن مركزي يفرقني بالقوة ..
أنا قلت نعم عشان الطبقية والإستعلاء فى التعامل ينتهوا مش عشان اللي معندوش ينداس عليه ويتباع بالرخيص ..

أنا قلت نعم عشان اللي عندي عمره ما هيخلص ولازم المجلس يفهم كده .. لازم يعي إن الناس مش هتهدى وتخرس زي زمان .. الكيل فعلا طفح وعفّن وانتشر في كل حتة فى البلد .. يا حكومة يا إما تعابرونا يا إما تسيبونا .. الشعب عمل ثورة على البلد نفسها: سياستها بمنشأتها بأحزابها .. على أكلها وشربها وإقتصادها وأسلوب قمعها .. ثورة على أقل حق لينا إننا نحس بكرامتنا فى أرضنا !

أنا قلت نعم عشان مخافش أكتب كلام زي ده مش عشان أستنى مكالمة تهديد من أمن دولة أو  أمن مسمي نفسه وطني !


.. N.O.H.A ..

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

هو أنا بكلم نفسي هنا؟


هو أنا بكلم نفسي هنا؟
 أُمّال ليه أنا حاسة بكده ؟؟

أنا ليه حاسة إن ماحدش سمعني؟؟ أنا ليه أيقنت إني مسجونة ؟؟
 ليه دايما عندي إحساس بالوحدة مع إن عندي صحاب كتير ؟؟
وليه دايما حاسة إن حقي مش موجود مع إني بأكل وبشرب ومصروفي موجود ؟؟

وليه حاسة إنى بتضيع مع إن عجلة الإنتاج ماشية والإستقرار مالي البلد لحد الملل ؟؟
وليه دايما خايفة إن المجلس العسكري يحكمنا بدل مبارك مع إنه دايما بيوعدنا بغير كده ؟؟
وليه مجلس الشعب متعملش في سبتمبر مع إن الثورة قامت في يناير ؟؟

وليه لسة بيتقال على الشباب شوية عيال وبلطجية مع إن اللي سرقوا و قتلوا بيتحاكموا ؟؟
وليه عيال زي أحمد سبايدر وكريم حسن لما يطلعوا يقولوا على الملأ إنهم بيضربوا في ناس مابيتشدوش وألتراس أهلاوي يتعمل عليهم كمين عشان يحرمهوا ينطقوا تاني ؟؟

وليه 6 ابريل يتقال عليهم خونة واللي خان البلد 30 سنة قاعد في مستشفى 100 نجوم ؟؟
وليه أول ناس إتحسن وضعهم في البلد هم الظباط وأهل الدويقة قعدوا بالشهور في الشارع من غير ما حد يعبرهم وفي الآخر اتفضوا بالقوة ؟؟؟

هو ليه دايما الشعب في ناحية واللي حاكم البلد من غير ما يختاره حد في ناحية تانية ؟؟

هو مش إحنا في بلد واحدة ولا إيه ؟؟

هو إحنا مش بنشرب نفس المية و بنأكل نفس الأكل و بنروح نفس الأماكن و عايشين في نفس الكرة الأرضية ولا إيه ؟؟؟


بالله عليهم حد يرد عليا .. يمكن أنا غلطانة .. مش مهم .. بس الأهم أرجع أحس من تاني إن حواليا ناسي وأهلي وعزوتي اللي خايفة عليَّا وحمياني من الأطماع و الغدر و الخيانة ...

إمضاء ..

مصر

.. N.O.H.A ..

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Waiting is Gold


What exactly are we waiting for? Is it Salvation? Is it Peace? Is it Harmony? Is it Love? Is it Marriage? Is it Kids? Is it Money? Is is Happiness? Is it paradise? ..
A lot of times I don't know the answers to these questions, on the other hand I'm okay with it ..

I tend to feel fine with the kind of life I'm living .. I tend to have peace with myself, even if people think otherwise .. I understand how they must feel .. They're just afraid of the things they know nothing about, specially when they actually care .. I agree I may seem confusing .. Surprisingly, they can't live my life, so they start urging me to change and live my life by their own rules ..

However, I'm okay .. I'm Waiting ... :)

Waiting isn't always a dreadful thing to feel .. Waiting isn't always demeaning or forsaken ..
Waiting sometimes can be your only solution .. It may become your only road-to-cross for a better future ..

Waiting, if it comes along with Patience, usually succeed to keep me right on track .. It helps me to survive, to appreciate life and go that extra mile everyone waits for ..

Call me crazy, as I recently fell in love with Hope .. Hardships do  not always bring you down, they can quickly pull you back up and make you stronger than you've ever known ..

Suppression isn't always the key to become better, in other words to FEEL better ..
I've been there... I've known what it's like to prevent yourself from the things you love, the things you desperately long for, and the things that make you safe .. just to feel whole again ..

If you tried waking up in the morning and going through your life journey, believe me you may find it fine after all .. Just tell yourself, you're gonna get what you want, you're gonna achieve what you've always dreamed of .. Just remind yourself of the treasures you have never taken a look at .. I'm sure you'll find a good thing or two that you love about yourself ..

Have a conversation with yourself every now and then .. Don't feel shy about it .. It does actually work!
Everything matters, don't ever undermine what you feel inside, don't ever think you're worthless .. That would only let you become more brutal, more cruel, more offensive to everyone else ..

And yes, you do not live alone :) .. Whether you like it or not, you'll have to deal with someone somewhere some day ...

I guess what I'm trying to say is ... Keep it simple, light, and full of flavor .. It's YOUR life we're talking about here .. It deserves some care, some appreciation, some joy to help you endure, affect, and enjoy ..

Try to be graceful with yourself .. indulge it, pamper it, and caress it every once in a while ..
You'll be blown away by the rewards if you let everything be reveled on its own ...

.. N.O.H.A ..


*Inspired by Take That's "I'd Wait For Life."

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Love Sick


She tends to drown in your eyes just by hearing your voice .. She loves hearing your heart beeping for her and only her .. She misses you everywhere she goes .. She sees you in every little thing she does ..

Forgive her if she's love sick .. Forgive her if she may seem demanding .. Forgive her if she's too sensitive to handle .. She loves you and pleads for your kindness ..

Everyday is a brand new day for her, only if she hears your voice .. Each morning she wakes up with a smile just because you're by her side .. And when the night comes, your arms is all she's got ..

Try a little tenderness ...

 .. N.O.H.A ..

*Inspired by Adele's Lovesong :)

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Book Review: Shaymaa El-Gammal's "Ta2 Marbouta"

http://www.facebook.com/Shaymaa.Gammal

Cute! That's the first thing that came to my mind when I grabbed Shaymaa El Gammal's "Ta2 Marbouta." Its design gave me an impression that the book is certainly a fun, different ride; small and colorful, yet very enjoyable to read. It's very rare that I find Arabic books with appealing illustrations that goes along the readings as well.

So, here's what I thought about the book after reading it cover to cover. Shaymaa managed to gather some of her personal life experiences, day-dreaming revelations, along with few interesting resolutions; reciting bits and pieces of what she believes in. It is quite shown that she gave her all and poured what she had in her heart to be able to write the chapters of this book. This book is her first experience in the world of publishing, however she's been writing for years now as a journalist in several magazines.

Every girl will definitely relate to a chapter or two. The book is light, and very easy-to-read. It's mostly written in slang Arabic, exactly like she talks in real life. With every page that you flip, you'll feel it screams out her character. Her aspects are revealed in every story, every thought, and every vision.

My personal favorite segment is called, "Sho'aa'a Nour" or "Ray of Light," expressing how a writer can feel sometimes when he/she can be consumed by their moods; how one can be stuck in a mental state of mixed feelings, not knowing what to write but few ramblings and subjective wishes.

Also, you'll notice that Shaymaa's writing style is daring and surprising. For example, She wasn't scared to narrate how she used to steal stuff from the library when she was a child, not realizing she did a bad deed in the first place of course, or how she gets jealous at her husband from the slightest incidents, like drinking a cup of cocoa that gives him warmth or sleeping on a pillow that may hold his head all night long.

You don't want to miss "Ta2 Marbouta." After you finish reading, you'll be surprised to realize how it would provide you with the exact push/energy you wish to receive from a close friend. I felt good vibes coming out of this book. Encouragement is what I gained when I read these words: "Try to focus and remember the times when you were truly happy. Indeed, you have some memories that help you stick with whatever makes you sense real joy. Do not be shy ever!" ~ A quote from "A'an M'ana Al-Sa'ada Athadath" or "Speaking of Happiness."

P.S: If you'd like to check more of her writings, go to: http://ayamwayam.blogspot.com

Cilantro Central Magazine
October/November 2011

.. N.O.H.A ..

Saturday, August 27, 2011

The Fog is Finally Lifting


Is the block finally coming to an end? I hope so .. I'm starting to feel some of the thoughts growing in my brain again .. They're like seeds sent from heaven .. Don't know where they come from ..

My only solution is to stay calm .. Whenever I start recalling the past events, I panic; my brain takes a hold on me, sometimes totally freezes! Could it be because of the incidents that happened in my life recently? I really don't know ..

Hopefully, this free writing practice will help me release the evil thoughts I have .. It may liberate me once again from my dark side .. Every writer has one, that's for sure ..

I usually advice myself to fight back, but for this block I totally went with the flow .. I know it's almost a year since I've written a decent article or post, however I managed to keep up as much as I could .. You see... for me it's always about the idea... The quality, not the quantity! I can't help but wait for the right moment of inspiration, and start to pour out what I have in mind .. I'm not the kind of writer who can write for just writing .. I have to feel it! Call me emotional, but that's the way I'm made of .. in almost everything!

I know this post may sound pointless, but it means something to Me :)
After all, I have always been into writing because I wanted to have a voice, not because I wanted to earn a living...

I sincerely ask for your prayers... I'm experiecing some tough times nowadays and I could use your kindness anytime of the day...

May ALLAH, the most gracious, the most merciful, grants us the right path and guides us to what he sees best! Amen!

.. N.O.H.A ..

Sunday, August 14, 2011

إديني ودنك يا مواطن


ممكن معلش طلب صغير؟

كفاية كلام .. آه والله كفاية كلام ..

التلفزيون مابيبطلش كلام .. الناس مابتبطلش كلام .. الراديو مابيبطلش كلام .. والأهل طبعا مابيتواصوش :)

دول الناس اللي ماينفعش تقولهم بطلوا كلام .. مش عشان عيب مثلا لا سمح الله .. لأ عشان مفيش فايدة مش هيبطلوا أصلا :)

المهم .. أنا قصدي كفاية لإيه طيب؟

كفاية هلس .. آه والله كفاية هلس .. بمعنى أصح كفاية تُفشر وإنت مش عارف ..

كل من هبّ ودبّ دلوقتي يطلع على التلفزيون يقول أي كلام ملوش أي تلاتين لازمة يعملوا بيهم إشاعة يا إما يسنّوا سنة حسنة صراحة تلاقي كله قلّدهم وهلم جرّه ..

لو عليَّا مثلا مش مشكلة .. بس المشكلة في أمي اللي بتصدق أي حاجة ماشية في الشارع .. طب أعمل معاها إيه طيب .. يا نهى ماتنزليش .. حاضر .. يا نهى متعمليش .. حاضر .. يا نهى بيقولوا السلفيين .. هيموتونا .. لأ يا ماما متصدّقيش .. طب والمسيحيين اللي قاعدين لنا عالواحدة .. يا ماما متخافيش مفيش حاجة .. يا بنتي أنا بخاف عليكي .. عارفة يا ماما .. 
ويالهوي لما كانوا بيجيبوا المسلسل الزفت اللي اسمه مطلوب رجال .. يا خراشــــــــــــى .. بلاش أحكي بقى :)

خلصت الكلام .. بس بالله عليكم إتصرفوا .. يعني أنا مش بأقول ماتتفرجوش ولا متسمعوش ولا ماتتكلموش ... بس أوزنوا الكلام كده بعقلكم .. يعني مش أي حد ييجي يقول أي حاجة تصدقوه .. عايزين نقضى على حملة #إديني_ودنك_يا_مواطن اللي الشيطان عمل يووورررر فيها لما خلاص !!

كلمتين كانوا واقفيين فى الزور وحبيت أقولهم .. بس كده !

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

I Miss Him

I miss him ..

I miss the little beep in my heart that spreads like fire within me whenever I hear him calling my name ..

I miss how he looks at me without uttering a single word, waiting for me to tell what he feels instead ..

I miss the tingles, the yawns, the breathe I take whenever he's around ..
But, what I miss the most is how he caresses me by his soothing voice all day long ..

My soul longs for eternity by his side ..
My voice aches to beg him to stay every time ..
My heart knows what my mind wants, but can't seem to surrender to what we're living in, what we're walking up to, and what we're waiting for, every single day ...

Patience is our only allegiance ..
God is our only allay ..
Pleading for mercy is the only way ...
To be granted a glimpse of heaven if only for a while ...

.. N.O.H.A ..

Thursday, July 28, 2011

I'm Not a Little Girl Anymore!


Here's a Reality Check for you, I turned 29 years today.. Oh, yes.. I'm not a little girl anymore :)

I have a mind, body, and soul that can talk, walk, act, feel, cry, object, scream, and reject your insightful advice!

I don't need some shitty job to define who I am, I don't need you to tell me I've done nothing with my life, and I won't let ANYONE choose any life decisions on my behalf..

I already have a personality.. I already know what I love and what I hate.. I already have goals that your mind can't process!

I don't have to be you to succeed, I don't have to endure the nonsense I hear from you or anyone else about how my life is worthless and useless...

I'm done taking my orders from you, I'm done waiting for you to understand, I'm done giving you a chance to redeem yourself..

I'm standing up for myself, I'm taking the most important decision in my life, I'm fighting your typical norm of living..

I won't be you .. I won't be anywhere near you .. I won't even wait for your empathy anymore ..

I have a will and I'm gonna fight for it! I'm gonna do what I want, what I decide, and what I plan ..

I want to live my life as I dream for it to be.. I want to believe in what I do, I want to feel I'm good at what I do.. Give it a rest, I'm not like you.. So, quit lecturing me!


Either you offer your support, or simply SHUT the **** UP!

.. N.O.H.A ..

Friday, July 15, 2011

Enough Formality


I'm not an ordinary person & I never will be .. Yes, I get bored easily, deal with it .. But, disrespect?! This, I won't endure by any means!!!

What goes around comes around in case you didn't already know that .. And, yes I may lose a lot of ppl thru my life & I may not have lots of close friends .. However, I gain others each day. Believe it or not, whoever stays, a.k.a stands by me, is as genuine as hell!

This reminds me, I'm done writing formal essays & useless words .. Yeah, I'm bored as hell & you know you are too! Unless the piece grabs my attention, I'm placing it in the nearest trash! I'm writing what I want, when I want, how I want!!!

Ugggghhhhhh!!!!!

.. N.O.H.A ..

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Pain is Power!


Despite what other people may think, I believe that "Pain" is a crucial part of our lives..
It's our fuel.. It's what keeps us going and ignites our fire..

Unfortunately, people misuse it.. They tend to re-live it over and over again, when it's only meant to push you along the way..

I admit, I was trapped for many years in this type of looping phase; where I see all non-living things feeding on my brain.. I was standing still, couldn't manage to breathe or maybe think of a solution.. As if I'm trying to be dead, when I'm not :)

I used to wonder how people actually live beside all this torments and delusions.. Depression was the only road for me.. Didn't know the true meaning of positivity.. I would be positive for a few days in a month, and the rest are full of total misery..

But, something truly happened... I got got fed up!

I knew then I had the power to choose..
I knew that anger wasn't the solution to everything..
I knew that talking to someone actually helps..
I knew that there were people feeling the same as I am; breathing the same air that I'm inhaling..

Suddenly, I was not alone anymore.. I was set free.. I could do anything I wanted in the world..
I was convinced that I matter for real.. I felt "Pain" was always there for a reason.. I finally knew why I had had to put up with all what I'm facing.. You can flip it, toss it, turn it around, re-shape it.... you name it! Do ANYTHING you want with it :)

What a relief! Kindness genuinely works in our life... Whether you CHOOSE to believe it or not, CHANGE can actually happen...

Try it yourself.. Give a chance to Good to vanquish Evil.. Darkness do fade away..
"Set Fire To The Rain" as ADELE sings ;)

Have a good day everyone!

.. N.O.H.A ..

Reality Check: I Don't Care!



Holding on to your grudges.. What a splendid work of art!

The situation goes as follows.. Someone decides to argue with you, then you choose not to go for it.. The conclusion is that you're not brave enough to respond.. (Or, that's how their mind works).

Here's a wake up call for you :)

Maybe they decided to do that ("retreat" in their case, or this is how you picture it) 'cause they actually cared about your feelings.. Maybe they chose not to be drawn to a loop of useless, inefficient arguments.. Maybe, just maybe they didn't want to live by your delusional standards..

Oh, yes.. For the sake of goodness and friendship... They ARE actually good people :)

Believe it or not, you're not so perfect either.. You have to realize that it was your fault one way or the other.. Maybe you weren't so brave yourself when you decided to hold the grudge.. Maybe you weren't as strong as you think when you chose not to confront them (earlier)..

I may not make sense to you right now, nor to those reading this post.. But the fact that you choose a demeaning way to deal with a person explains a lot...

Here's another wake up call for you ... We're not God :)

We do not get the chance to lecture/control people... We do not choose how a person responds, acts, or feels towards another...

If you simply want to stop knowing a person, don't make a fuss about it... Making a scene isn't always the solution...

Also, if you want to REGAIN someone's trust, you have to give your all.. You have to fight to make things right... That's how they really acknowledge how genuine you are.. Whether you like it or not, people need pampering..

At the end, all this could happen on only one condition: that this person would ACTUALLY CARE :)
Unfortunately, they don't :)

Cheers!

.. N.O.H.A ..

Monday, June 27, 2011

This "Something is Missing" phrase has to END!


"Something is Missing!"

How many times do you recite this phrase to yourself everyday?
How many days do you wait for a miracle?
To what extent are you willing to really wait for the one?
Are you really satisfied with your life?
Have you achieved what you've always dreamed of?
Have you got the chance to actually get to know yourself?
What was your childhood dream job?
Do you practice what you preach for real?
What's the one thing you're still holding on to?
What makes you unique?
What do you really want? Not what your parents want, nor your friends.. Just YOU!
....................
...........................

Do I need to list more questions? Did I succeed to grab your attention?!

Now please answer. For the love of God, do it! Don't stand still. Don't blame others. Just be true to yourself for once. Bring back the fire you're losing. Remind yourself of what you've always wanted. Ignite your lost flame.

Believe it or not, using your brains actually is effective like fireworks. Even though you're standing still, THERE IS HOPE. There are way worse circumstances than what you're living in. Of course, I'll hear you saying, "I need to care about myself now. Me soul needs repairing." HELL YES it does, that's why you MUST listen to other stories that yours. :)

Get your mind off of things. Search out for the different colors of life. Try not to be selfish for once and help others. Forgive! And that's an order :) You may think those tasks are tiring, but trust me when I tell you this; Only those who are enjoying this life we're living are the ones who really embrace pain.

This is not another shitty blog post, nor I'm trying to impress you. This is an attempt to remind myself, before you, that we all matter. We are born for a purpose, Don't die just yet!

Keep it simple as much as you can. You never know what you're facing next in life, you oughta be prepared to be risky. That's your only ticket to salvation.

.. N.O.H.A ..

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

A Colorful Message

I very much love innovation, maybe cuz I'm Bipolar. Then again, who doesn't?!

Although, most people nowadays see the back seat of everything, I still choose to see it in my own way. This country IS & WILL BE great! Not because we want to, but because ALLAH (swt) has decided to grant us, at last, the true path to salvation.


I still have hope and I still see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's there, it's near, and it's, indeed, for all mankind, and not just for Egyptians. We have known the true meaning of Fajr Prayer, and that, my friends, is our first weapon.

I hope this coming stage spreads not more but amazing ideas and free-spirited visions, which will help us all on our road to failure; consequently, our country's first, true life experience.

.. N.O.H.A ..

*Inspired by: "It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all -- in which case, you fail by default." ~ J.K. Rowling .. Author and Best Seller of Harry Potter series.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

إرفع رأسك فوق .. إنت مصرى :)

Credits goes to: B+ Bassem Youssef Show
اليهود بيتغذوا على الكره والغيظ والخوف اللي في قلوبكم .. مابيهدلهمش بال ولا بيناموا بالليل كده وهم شايفين البلد دي بتكبر .. تصريح امريكا بإعفاء المليار جنية وانجلترا النهارده بالحكم علينا غرامة ما يتعداش بسهولة .. خدعوك فـقالوا هيبقوا راضيين عننا أو إن صورتنا تتحسن قدام العالم كله .. ولو حد إستسلم وصدق الهلس اللي بيحصل ده .. يبقى العيب فينا إحنا مش فيهم ...
يا رب أرزقنا الهداية و أرنا الحق حق و أرزقنا إتباعه و أرنا الباطل باطل و أرزقنا اجتنابه .. ادعو بكده يا ريت :)
وعشان تهدوا أعصابكم اتفرجوا على اللينك ده : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DTw8FR9s_qU&sns=fb
و عشان تفهموا وجهة نظرى إقرأ الخبر ده: http://www.dostor.org/politics/middle-east/11/may/6/41412
.. N.O.H.A .. 

Monday, May 9, 2011

I - R E F U S E


"I refuse to lose how you make me feel. I refuse to neglect the fact that it's real. I refuse to let go of something so rare to find, so hard to get. I refuse to surrender to negativity, to give in to my fears. But, I only agree on becoming more stronger, to grow older, to feel recognized... You're the only road I see ahead of me." ~ .. N.O.H.A ..

If You Like It, Then You Should Put a Ring on It ;)

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Hmm… speaking of the devil, "COMMITMENT" is usually the sum of all fears; the scariest action a man has to do. But, a person has to be fair, as well, because there are some men who are craving for some love and dedication in their lives. Obviously, those aren't the ones whom we will be talking about here. Let's first review the meaning of Commitment, shall we?

The What

Usually, Commitment is to be able to fully give in to the person that you love and desire. It is to be devoted and willing to love unconditionally, while having the courtesy of being responsible and living up to it. But, let's face it; that's how WOMEN see it. Men, on the other hand, think of it as some sort of entrapment. Unfortunately, it has been widely spread nowadays among their species that it is the hardest decision they will have to take through their entire lives. Then again, they're the ones who own the keys to the whole kingdom. Usually, they think that it is the toughest job ever; far more complex than climbing mountains, traveling through time and space or having dinner with President Obama for instance. It's exactly like taking the hottest girl on the block out for a day! You'll feel trapped and dazzled at first, but then you can get bored and want to instantly shoot her due to her stupidity. But still, if she's got the looks, then she's worth the trouble ;)

That's how I think men talk to themselves when they hear the word "Commitment" for the first time:

"Commitment? ... What in the world is that word? ... Who came up with this word in the first place? ... I've never heard about this word in my entire life, I swear! :| "

While that's how women usually react:

"Oh my! You're my ultimate love... You're whom I've been dying to meet through my entire life... How can you not know about commitment? ... Aren't your mum and dad committed already?"

Men reply as follows: "All I know is that they're taking turns of yelling at me. I never knew that's called Commitment!"

Funny, huh?! There used to be a time when men craved for a look or just a three words letter sent by their sole soul mates. They spent hours and hours waiting for their love to just drop by and say Hi.


The Why

You see, our domestic problems have widely grown. The policies and routine lives are growing on us, but the main issue is that we all have family conflicts. We all suffer from the lack of communication and we all do absolutely nothing about it. God only saves the ones who truly try to make things work for themselves and genuinely offer all what they have to give for the sake of peaceful reality. If you ask any guy about their relationship with their parents, they mostly answer as follows: "I don't see them that much to have a relationship that often." They tend to escape their lives and lead a totally different one on the outside. I've always believed in the saying that states: "If you really wanna know how a man will treat you, you should observe how he treats his mom." You may think I'm old fashioned, but believe me it's incredibly true. Just observe it for yourself and you'll know I'm right.


The Who

Whenever you ask a man nowadays of how he sees his future, he goes like: "Ahhh ... mmm ... of course, of course... Hey dude, wait for me!" And that's how the show ends ladies and gentlemen. Who do you think is responsible for this? OF COURSE THE WOMAN WHO ASKED; Are you kidding me??!! **Laughing Out Loud** And, the list just pops out of his head; "she's definitely complicated, ignorant, and bossy. I'll never call her again!" I usually wonder why they wanna escape having thoughts or even neglect to try having a 5 years plan for example. It's very hard to find a decent thoughtful guy who doesn't think that he's some sort of a God around here. Most of them think they're GAMDEEN AWI; fantasizing the day when they will conquer any heart of a woman and give her the privilege of being his companion. And, who's always the one to blame for any disaster? OF COURSE, THE WOMAN as well. "Why the hell do you go talk to that guy for?" (a man acts nervously) "Haven't I told you million of times to call me when you decide to go out? ... Aren't you supposed to make me better?" Oh please! For the love of God, enough having meaningless quarrels! On the other hand, try to reasonably discuss things and treat your woman like a human being, who has a brain and not just a soothing ointment that you use whenever you feel a bee's sting. It's widely known among the society of women that they have to act dumb ALL THE TIME, in order to preserve the guy she's with -- as if he's a national treasure or something!

So, don't ever think that we're endlessly lost. Believe it or not, we do know how to act and react around men. In fact, it mostly consumes as all our lives and that's because "WE'RE BORN TO DO IT!" We're specially designed to contain and embrace your existence, not to clean up your daily smelly mess.


The How

-- I'm the man of the 'Dos' & not the 'I Dos' -- Huh?! What does that even mean?! You're a man who loves action, but can never be a part of it. So, it means that you'd love to have a woman in your life to cherish, to hold … bla bla bla, but you can never get hitched. SPLENDID! So, that's how it has been working for over 5 years or more now. Whenever you talk to a guy about marriage, he simply and literary freaks out! They instantly think you're trying to trap them or something. They amazingly start changing the subject and may, suddenly, remember that he had a doctor appointment that he's missed and need to reschedule for his own health. It's like Jason has risen from the graveyard and decided to pay him a visit. I'll never forget the expression that I heard from a friend's ex-boyfriend, when he suddenly asked her to hang up the phone just because she mentioned that she could wait for him "IF" -- and I repeat "IF" -- he decided that they should get engaged. Hmm, but I think that was slightly better that the other guy who was ALREADY engaged and still wants to be with her. I was like and I quote: "Why didn't he ever think of getting engaged to you?" and she replied, quoting his words as well: "I don't know. I just never thought of you as my wife!" And what really makes you laugh is that he's totally convinced that he's not doing her any harm or to his wife-to-be. He's being honest and that's an amazing privilege in her life (In his bloody sweaty twisted dreams!).

Do us a favor and just be direct once and for all guys. If you're into having fun, just inform women up front. You'll be surprised of the outcomes and I'm not kidding. Just be open and allow us to be ourselves without all the lies and deceit that you all wish they could disappear. Moreover, if you're truly into a woman for real, highlight it and don't be afraid to just pour out what you have to say so spontaneously. Women always love a man who's protective of his feelings, but passionate as well.

The End

I hope I didn't sound offensive or anything. I know I tend to be strict when it comes to morals. And, I repeat; I'm not against ALL men and I'm not some sort of an angel either. I just think that the ignorant way of treating a woman is past tense. However, I admit that some women deserve to be treated as pets because they simply choose to act like one. To make things end up pretty smooth, I would love to express my gratitude to the manly race; they're the reason we exist and they're the ones who make our lives easier. It always feels like heaven when a man simply decides to 'yedala3 el wa7da menena shwya.' All they have to know is that we're not slow as we seem and we do deserve some respect and harmony every now and then. Simply, treat people like you want to be treated and have a healthy conversation every now and then. This saying goes out to both of you! Cheers!

Cairo Elite Magazine
November 2010

.. N.O.H.A ..

A C C E P T A N C E


"A C C E P T A N C E  is the key to every solution or crisis on the face of the earth. If we learn how to listen, to really really listen, no one will ever suffer again. We should use our hearts more often. Think not with your minds for a while. Follow your instinct. Liberate your senses to reunite. May ALLAH sub7ano wa ta'ala grants us what our hearts deserve and feel. Amen." ~ .. N.O.H.A ..

Saturday, March 26, 2011

I Can Breathe :)


I can breathe ...

For the first time in my life, I act upon what I feel and need ..

For the first time in my life, I dream, I choose, and I conquer!

I dreamt of a better life, and now I'm living it..
I chose not to settle for the least, and now I'm having it..
I conquered the fears I've had all the past years, and now I'm enjoying it..

I've always known this day would come.. I'm always felt free, but trapped inside, not knowing where to go.. The fog is finally lifted..

I can breathe ...

My soul has never felt so alive before.. To know how to live your life is really great; but to actually live it is something else..

No one can ever take this right away from you.. No one should even be close to that thought..

I can breathe ...

For the first time, I actually forgive.. Genuinely, truly, deeply, sincerely, forgive.. Forgive anything that has shifted my mood or anyone who has invaded my territory.. And, from the bottom of my life, I thank them.. I'm grateful because they made me stronger, more confident, and more sure than ever that I exist..

I can breathe ...

I have a voice now.. People turn to listen to my thoughts.. Friends notice my existence.. Family appreciates what I've been giving..

"For the Benefit of Mankind" .. Mark these words, for they are no longer silent and dull .. They lead, execute, and evolve.. Remember them carefully, for they are your future guide line.. Nothing is more demeaning than selfishness; it brings nothing but bitterness and hatred to your heart..

Praise to ALLAH, the most compassionate and most gracious...

.. N.O.H.A ..

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Egyptian Reverie


BEFORE 25.01.2011:

"Do you cry over a country once known to be the greatest of them all? Do you spend your time whining about things you may have done? Are you chasing something and really do not know what it is? Are you living in a looping phase of frustration and resentment? Do you pray for some dignity, some appreciation?

This is your wake up call. You have to realize, it’s all about you! It’s you who thinks… it’s you who prays… it’s you who feels, dreams… chooses to triumph over your daily battles.

This is your chance to face your own demons, believe in role models, save everyone from their sins against themselves. It’s about articulating hope, carving the words of the future on your heart.

So, break free from the imprisonment of life, hold your breath for a brand new day. Do something! Take a moment to live, love, and enjoy. Do what it takes to set your spirit free. Work on your relationships, help yourself become better. Say No to the things you hate. Be your own super hero. Conquer the fears that feed on your soul. Make use of the selfishness and shift it to self-worth.

Lift yourself up, let your insecurities go.
Have a vision.
Rebel.

Make a Scene!
"

AFTER 11.02.2011:

I wrote this note couple of months ago .. Didn't know I would live to witness such a victorious day .. I had a Reverie of a day when good beats evil, when honesty rules the world, when dignity is revived, and justice is the only language we speak!

I've never been this proud .. I've never felt this alive .. I've never felt this fresh breeze ..

Another day has truly come .. Another chance from our Almighty ALLAH to build and live once again ..

I finally can be myself, have a voice, and choose what's best .. I finally have the confidence to lead my life without fear .. I finally can wake up each morning without any burdens of any kind ..

We have clicked our "Restart" button; not only hoping for the best, but acting upon what we definitely believe in ..

Sincerely proud of being Egyptian,

.. N.O.H.A ..

Friday, January 14, 2011

J U S T I C E




"People who curse others only blame themselves for losing what's most precious. They try so hard to convince themselves they're better than everyone. Sadly, they constantly forget; only those who genuinely have good hearts, don't actually believe they do, hoping they have done true deeds to be saved from darkness. Be careful whom you judge along your journey of life. ALLAH (swt) never sleeps, and indeed, grants J U S T I C E to all." ~ .. N.O.H.A ..

C H A N G E

"When C H A N G E starts invading your life, your mind keeps fighting it, thinking you're living a better lifestyle. But, that's just your comfort zone speaking. How about you embrace it? C H A N G E revives your soul, takes you on a journey full of hope and second chances. I know it's scary, yet it's worth the risk." ~ .. N.O.H.A ..


Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Hypocritically Egyptian


Is it just me or the world have suddenly taken interest in Egypt's political matters?! I just wonder, where were all these people before? When did being a rebel suddenly become so cool and fancy?

What's even more strange to me is why are they protesting in Shubra in the first place? What exactly do they want? And, why the hell nobody does anything when Ghaza was bombed last week?

Can't they realize that this was only a distraction to what's fatal? Are Egyptians becoming so blind and acting like middle kids that they can't see the greater picture? Why can't everyone admit that what happened in Alexandria was just a normal fight and the only difference that it was caught on tape?

It's very simple; a church in front of a small mosque at new year's eve, adding to it a note of declaration on facebook to announce that some terror attacks have been planned for quite a time now. And, please don't forget to mention our combination of ignorant feelings of guilt and low self-esteem along the way. If you're not going to shout out loud, "Long Live the Islamic crescent with the Christian Cross," then you won't deserve to be a real Egyptian and everyone will start calling you all sorts of names.

I'm not sorry to say this, but Egyptians have grown to live in so much hypocrisy that they feel lazy to use their brains for a second! You don't need to tell everyone that you're patriot to convince them, you don't need to change your facebook profile picture to declare your compassion for any other doctrine, and you don't have to act like you're soooooo angry of what happened the other day. Because if simply you give a damn about this country, you would have done a lot already. At least, you would have shown some dignity when every single land is presented in an auction and being sold to foreigners. You would have stopped the constant messages of hate and disrespect, which are being broadcasted daily on the news. You would have become better for yourself, you would have been more positive and effective, you would have stopped polluting our streets with your garbage, you would have done your job in a more respectful way, you would have reported trendy thieves.. Last but not least, you would have stopped acting like you're somebody else and started to take responsibility of your own actions.

Egyptians should start getting over themselves and lose the ignorance and useless anger. If they allow banning Islamic mosques from opening their doors for real good teachings, they should expect weirdos and psychos to bomb their own territories one day. If they allow churches to kill innocent women who convert to Islam, then they should expect to see slaughtering in Upper Egypt all the time. If they ban Jews from living in Egypt, then they should expect the wild fire of "Fetna" among them.

Again, I'm not sorry when I say this, but I refuse to be hooked up on such a silly, meaningless matter. I don't need to justify myself by saying "Ana Masry, Ana ded El Erhab." If I did so, then I would only be recognizing its existence; when all of this is just total crap and nothing but a big shitty play, written and directed by freakin' death eaters!

*Inspired by a post-Jan25, 2011 incident in Alexandria.

.. N.O.H.A ..